Grass is greener on the other side?

Is the grass always greener on the other side? Usually that's not the case, but us being typical human beings we make it seem that way.

No matter what we always feel that there's something missing with us and that there's something better elsewhere.

So why is that?

I don't have a clue, but this does remind of me of something I heard in a movie once. Long time ago, I can't even remember the film, which is annoying me but I will move on from that anyways back to the point, in the movie, there's this lady that says something in the lines of; all humans have a hole in their hearts or soul and that it can never be filled and hence causes greed and never feeling satisfied with what they have.

Well I can't say that what was said is true, but I understand the background to where that idea came from.

Come on, let's be truthful to ourselves, are we 100% content with our lives? There are people out there who think they are, and maybe they are, and I am happy for them, but for the rest of us, not so much.

We always try to fill the void that is within ourselves. How we try to fill it up is different from one person to the next. And this causes us to believe that once we achieve that one thing it would be better for us. We will be happier and life will be almost perfect.

But in reality that's not true right? I mean we can never make our life perfect. There is no such thing as perfect. Close to perfection? Yes. Perfect? No. Only the creator of this world is perfect and we human beings are obviously no where near that.

So what's the cure? What's the solution for us? The obvious answer is be happy with what you have. Look for the silver lining. For if you see the good side in life, you will live the good life.

That would work for so many people, but some of us, we need something more. I still didn't figure out what is that we need. But it's out there somewhere. Until then we can just pray for the best for ourselves and hope one day, we can smile and say "you know what, I'm happy with my life" Inshallah.

Yeah crash into my car that would get my attention!

Guys, SERIOUSLY! You need to stop stalking/doing stupid dangerous tricks on the road every time you see a girl drive.

HELLO we live in the freaking 21st century! Your still not used to seeing female drivers? REALLY?!!

Gosh this sooo annoying! I mean look if I don't give you face the first time I notice you chasing me like an idiot means I won't ever give you my number or anything. So please stop trying, ya3ni its so embaressing for you and degrading for us. So please save both of us the trouble.

OK so I will admit there are the um, other girls who love it and play along and want you to chase them, they give out that vibe and lead you on, so follow them la!

I am clearly not interested in you bullshit, I am not smiling or laughing or even looking your way. So why you still in pursuit?!

One day I am going to stop my car and get out of it with a baseball bat in my hand and smash your window (if only I would be able to get away with that).

That's my complaint for today.

Thank you and Goodbye.

My favourite Season

So I have four seasons to pick from, but I am going to be a bit vague and pick the middle to end of autumn and beginings of winter. I prefer the cold to the heat. I don't mind a little but of sunshine, but the heat that it causes just irritates me.

Why the colder seasons? Well why not? I have been living in the desert my whole life! OK not the actual desert but you know what I mean. It's always hot! We only have two seasons and our winter is so and so.

I love autumn and winter because of the vibe it brings. The cold air brushing against your face. The scarves you wear around your neck and the gloves you put on your hands. The "smoke" that comes out of your mouth when you talk! Just awesome. OK I will admit that I don't like the freezing cold weather because it is too much to handle, but I would prefer feeling cold to feeling hot.

The colours that associate with these two seasons. I love the grey, black and blue. So beautiful. I love the colour black, its slimimg and hot! How could you not like it? Oh best combination black with silver amazing!! OK I'm going off track here back to the point.

Even winter perfumes are just sensational. The strong scent that sends you off the edge. I am thinking DKNY Delicious Night, Escada Magnetism , Ricci Ricci and Givnechy Angel eu Demon.(I know its old but still my favs) All these scents! They are so heavy and lasting just my kind of thing.

The food! The hot coco drinks, coffee and tea. Hot cookies just out of the oven! All those yummy rich food that you could eat because they make you feel hot inside so its perfect for winter.

So winter is my season. It represents me. It is cold, but yet you can find warmth. Dark colours, strong scents and everyone in their own world. =)

I can't wait until this heat passes over because it is driving me INSANE!

Oh and for the record, I hate the rain! Really hate it! Only part of the winter and autumn that I hate! So annoying!! And of all the places I picked to study, I am in the UK, RAIN CENTRAL! Just my luck -.-

Some things are better left unsaid

I hate myself right now! I don't know why, but sometimes I feel that if I talk about the 'problem' it would make things much better, but this time IT DID NOT! If anything I made the situation worse and I just killed the awesome mood! =(

I was talking to someone close to me, I'll give them code name A*. So here we are having an amazing time, joking and laughing. Then suddenly I remember something sad and troubling and I am thinking should we talk about it? So I start 5arafing, and they can tell something is wrong. So then I just blurt it out.

And then what happens? Their face just changed 180 degrees. I could feel the tension in the air. And that bad feeling in my heart just gets worse!!

I knew it, some things are just better left unsaid, because sometimes talking about it just makes it real and makes you face it and this was something neither of us wanted to face.

Now I feel like crap! Great as if I needed more reasons to become depressed!

Inception

Amazing movie I just watched today and I recommend it.

It is science fiction action film. I was reluctant to watch at first because I didn't understand the trailer, but after a few mins into the movie I was hooked. It has you at the edge of your seat and you have to pay attention to detail or you could get lost.

Heres the link to two trailers:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmkQ7fw-l0g&feature=channel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66TuSJo4dZM

In the mood for some alternative music

I love music. Music is my love. Need I say more?

I use to have this really bad obsession with music. Like since I wake till I go to sleep I would have headphones on or music would be blasting from my stereo.

Then I realised I needed to calm down.

So now I am calmer, but my love for music still remains.

I love all types of genre, you name it, I heard it. Seriously I mean ALL GENRES from Rock to Rap. From Country to Jazz. From Pop to Blues. From RnB to Bollywood music. From 5aleeji to Spanish. From reggae to regatton. You get the picture.

Right now I am in the mood of alternative music, which is one of my favourite genre in music. The other day I was going through a rough time, I was feeling a bit down. So I took the car and drove to nearest Fast-food place (yeah comfort easting) and on the way I was listening to a series of alternative music, and I felt it reached to my heart (yeah I can be melodramatic sometimes). At the that instant the world was blue, there was no sunshine no one else out there but me. I felt my sadness take over, but not in a way that I started crying and going crazy, but in a peaceful way (I can;t explain how) but that's how I felt.

So now I am in the mood for alternative music. So I can be overwhelmed by all kinds of emotions.

Here are some of my song choices =)

Oh and I know they look kinda creepy :P

but aren't all artist eccentric looking? ;)

Catching the Laughing Bug

I think one day me and my brother will be band from all fast food drive-thrus. :P

How it all started:

One day, me and my brother decide to go to Burger King to get my Dad and sister meals. So here we are in the drive-thru waiting in line. Then comes our turn, I lower the window and make my order, the guy (indian dude) repeats the order and the way he pronounces the drink "coke" CRACKS ME UP BIG TIME! I start laughing and I couldn't stop. Then my brother starts laughing at my reaction, we just laugh while I pay the guy and continue laughing until i get to the next window and get my order.

Just keeps on getting better:

So the other day be and my brother go to McDonalds. We are at the drive-thru and before we reach my brother reminds me of the Burger King incident and I crack up again and while I am ordering I just laugh and the guy is confused.

Thought it was over:

But it wasn't. Today I went to McDonalds again with my brother and like the last time before we reach the window he reminds of the previous incident and guess what I start laughing again and I kind of scare the guy at the window. He probably thinks me and my brother are some druggies or crazy people who can't stop laughing. :P

Will this curse ever end?:

I have NO IDEA!!

So yeah I think one day, we might possibly be band from Drive-thrus :p

(yeah I like to exaggerate)

For a pessimist I am pretty optimistic

What does it mean to be truly happy?

I know of poeple who lived simplistic lives (simplistic in a sense of no hardships) and see the world as colourful bubble (yeah I cant think of anything else). They smile, all the time, but if you look beyond the smile do you know what you'll see? A naive person. Yeah that's what I believe.

Oh and then there are the poeple who try to forcefully make themsleves seem happy ALL THE TIME! They try to 'spread' the happiness. When it is so clear to us that they are not HAPPY AT ALL! So please spare us the fakeness we can see right through you. And it is sometimes annoying.

So if you believe that you can save someone from their depressed state with you trying to "shower them with your false or naive happiness" please STOP! Speaking from experience it does nothing. If they want to be alone then they NEED to be alone. Stop telling them you 'understand' or it cant be that 'bad', because for all you know, it is that bad and no you will never understand so please spare yourselves the trouble of making us feel annoyed.

I know this is a depressing post, but it needed to be posted. My blog is suppose to express me. I sometimes see myself being a realistic person but others say I am being pessimistic. But I'll admit for a pessimist I am pretty optimistic. :P

Can people really change?

So I am watching this series that I discovered it's called 'Lie to Me' (really nice, solving stuff, action kinda thing) anyways on of the episodes they are trying to figure out if they should let this guy(who was a gang leader) out of prison because he apparently 'changed'. From inside prison he was stopping gang wars and stuff. Now this got me thinking, can people really change?

I mean from inside out, to a totally different kind of person? In the post before this I talked about four people I knew and how they changed and all but now thinking back about it, they changed their life styles and choices (some did, and some didn't) but they didn't actually change themselves per say.

So it is possible? A complete transformation?

Which raises another question, what makes 'evil' people 'evil' ? Is it because they experienced a rough upbringing? Or did they have it in them all along?

Think of an abusive person, who is just always angry, and hits his loved ones, can he ever change? Will he ever regret it? If he was abused as a child, and he saw how it affected his loved ones, why would he do it to someone else?

I mean I saw this other programme (its was a medical type thing) and this guy became a nurse, when he was asked why, he replied that he saw how his dad hurt his mother and him, and he didn't want to end up like him, and instead he wanted to help other women, and hence he became a nurse in a free female clinic.

So two guys, experienced same abusive childhood, one ends up hitting his family, and the other ends up becoming a nurse helping the society.

So why the difference? Is it because the abusive guy always had it in him? That little spark of "evil"?

I know I trailed slightly off the topic but I feel that it relates in a sense, because we are so different. Everyone of us, our gene pool is amazingly different (identical twins excluded) some of us can change easily, though and through, and others, we can't, it's not that we don't want too. It's just that we can't. Or maybe we can but it'll take forever to change us.

So back the question, can people really change?

Four different friends

A few years back (around 5 years ago) there were four friends; two guys and two girls. Now before you start thinking that was like in a click or a group and they only had each other, your thinking is wrong. You see they had loads of other different friends and people they knew, it’s just that their particular life and how things changed is different and I want to blog about the four of them. =)

Guy no1

We will call him R, growing up he was a mama’s boy. I know its mean, but it’s the truth. He was an only child who was very spoilt, but deep down, and I mean really deep down, he was good guy. First years of school, he wasn’t a loser, just very regular, kind of uptight boy. Then we he turned 14 things changed. First thing was he started smoking. He was the first person to start smoking in his whole grade and at that time it was something HUGE. So the rebel in R started to show. Slowly as time progressed he began experimenting with other things, alcohol, hashish, etc. What we didn’t know at that time he was having some family issues, his parents and all, and it got ugly. Did that make him do those things? I will never know.

Then things just spiralled out of control. He just started going down the wrong path, and it gotten to the point where he forgot his religion and had no moral sense of what is right and what is wrong. He still hasn’t changed.

Guy no2:

We will call him D, to be honest I don’t know much of his childhood, but I do know that he lost his father (Allah yer7ma) and he lived with his mum. From what I know of him, he was crazy from the beginning. He was a wild person who did the unthinkable. You name it, he tried it! Yeah that's how screwed up he was, and keep in mind these people are teenagers. So then what happens? After a few years, he grew up graduated from high school and went to college. He the somehow (I wish I knew how) put his life back on track and choose the right “path”. He stopped smoking; drinking and going out with girls (you know what I mean). He started praying properly and even giving religious advice on his facebook profile and before I knew it I find out that he is engaged mashallah.

Girl1:

Her code name is H. No one understood how she was friends with all kinds of people. She was very social and talkative and just hung out with anyone. That's how she ended up being friends with people like D and R (there were also in the same school). She was the paranoid person always freaking out. She never did anything wrong but she was always worried about her friends because some of them were just wild. At the beginning she never advised them, she just watched them slowly lose control, until one day, everything changed. She somehow realised that she had to distance herself from the bad crowd. Without her realising they were slightly influencing her. So what happened to her? She also became bit more religious. I am impressed with her, she has changed a lot. She still maintains her social happy habit but I feel that she is much wiser now.

Girl2:

Code name A. She is the definition of a wild child. Rebel is her middle name. You name it, she has done it! She smoked, and had boyfriends. People would always talk about her but she never cared (which was one of the problems). She was reckless. Ironically she was best friends with D (match made in hell). They really had negative effects on each other. And now? Has she changed? If anything she is just getting worse. She is spiralling out of control. The funny thing is she once told me she was proud H for becoming more religious and all and I was thinking, then why don’t you fix your ways, it’s not too late. But she doesn’t want to change I guess. Maybe one day, but for now she is still the wild child.

So that the life so far of the four of them. I don’t think any of them keep in contact. Maybe a few hellos here and there but that's about it. It’s so amazing how they were once all in one path, and now they each lead a very different life.

“Things do not change; we change” Henery David Thoreau

20 things I learnt in 20 years

As the clock strikes twelve I am now officially 20 years old. I am no longer considered a "teen" if anything I am closer to being an "adult".

So I decided to note down 20 things I learnt in my life and inshallah there will be many more to come. The things could be something huge and important or something small and insignificant. Whatever it is its always good to learn something new.

1. It takes more muscles to frown then to smile. (I know so random, but when I was a kid I use to frown a lot, I don't know why, it just came naturally :P so I was always told that fact)

2. Photosynthesis is a chemical process in which plants convert carbon dioxide and water to oxygen and glucose. (Let me state that I love science, and my earliest memory of something I learnt in science was photosynthesis because we had this guy called Talal in our class who never was able to pronounce it correctly he use to say it in a funny way that would crack the whole class up hehe :P)

3. "If your friends jumped off a bridge, will you do the same?" This phrase bascially states exactly what I learnt, just because everyone is doing it doesn't mean I should flow. I should be a leader not a follower unless I am following someone doing good things.

4. Bad things happen to good people and bad things happen to bad people.

5. Good things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people.

6. Respiration and breathing is not the same thing! (this amazed me :P) oh and viruses are not living micro-organisms! (this shocked me!).

7. Anime aka Japanese cartoons, are awesome (I owe this to my brother) XD

8. It's OK if not everyone likes you, you can't make people like you and if they don't then it's their loss. =)

9. Music (as much as I love it) shouldn't consume your life, everything (including music) needs limitations.

10. Family ALWAYS comes first.

11. You win some, you lose some (in everything, friends, studies, etc.)

12. You can have more than one best friend, the more complicated you are (I am very complicated) the more best friends you need.

13. In a moment of anger you can say something that you will regret for the rest of life (a really long time).

14. Let go of the pain and don't dwell on the past, (still need 2 improve on that, but I am getting better)

15. No matter how old you get, cartoons (like tom and jerry and bugs bunny) still make you feel good inside. =)

16. Being confident and being able to speak publicly in front of a lot of people! ( I battled my stage frights, even though I still get nervous before going on stage to present something, I am better at it now)

17. DRIVING! yeah once I turned 18, I got my licence! MOST AWESOME THING EVER! XD

18. Sarcasm ( its a gift and a curse, I learnt it at a very young age, and I still have it :P)

19. Not to be judgemental. Of all the flaws I have like being moody, and over sensitive I have never been judgemental. I see past the labels, and take people for who they really are. And this helped have a "variety" of friends, yes we don't all agree on the same thing, but in the end we care about each other and that's what friends are for.

20. I have left this for last because I feel that it is the most important lesson I had in life so far. No matter, always keep your faith strong. No matter what you go through, no matter how dark and bad it seems. Just pray and everything will be al right. And I don't mean just pray 5 times a day and that's it, I mean go deeper than that. Look inside yourself and be a better person. A better Muslim. =)

So this is it!

I am entering my 20s, so this is not only a new page, but a new chapter. I hope to improve this year in both social and study wise. Be a happier person and keep on smiling. =)

and to everyone else no matter when your birthday is .... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Henna? Hair done? Make up? Do I sense a wedding?

The inspiration for this post, believe it or not came from my bb :P.

So tomorrow is a special day for me, because its my cousins wedding =) and my birthday! =)

But this post is dedicated to my cousin and her wedding :P

first off I MISS HENNA! its been ages since I put some, and I must admit I am a sucker for henna and I can't stop staring at my hands hehe,

And then tomorrow hair and make-up =)

Don't you just love weddings? The dancing, the music, the food :P, the happy atmosphere.

And it's the same day as my bday, double bonus :P

Alf mabroook to you K*

ooo 3u8balna ;)

Be inspired!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine.
We were born to make manifest the glory that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
-- Marianne Williamson

Whether you think you can or think you can't - you are right.
-- Henry Ford

To be able to give away riches is mandatory if you wish to posses them. This is the only way you will be truly rich.

-- Mohammed Ali

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

-- Albert Einstein

You were born an original. Don't die a copy.
-- John Mason

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.
-- Groucho Marx

The optimist proclaims that we live in the best of all possible worlds; and the pessimist fears this is true.

-- James Branch Cabell

There are people who, instead of listening to what is being said to them, are already listening to what they are going to say themselves.

-- Albert Guinon

The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.

-- Horace Walpole

it's JULY !!!

I cannot believe that I forgot to welcome the month of July!

So from my name you can tell that this month is very dear to me

And why would I love a month so much? Yeah my birthday is on this month, I know it sounds so self-centred but birthdays means a lot too me =) and there's another person who is so dear to me born in this month, my baby sister

So yeah, HELLO JULY! so far it has been awesome, and may the awesomeness continue.

Hope everyone is enjoying July.

Second chances?

I don't buy them, once a liar always a liar always a liar, once a cheater, always a cheater.

See the trend?

So they betrayed your trust the first time, so why wouldn't they do it again?

So second chances?

No thank you, not for me ...

Summer

So I am currently in the beautiful island called Bahrain, hehe, I LOVE IT HERE, and its mainly because of my awesome friends who are making my stay so much fun with every passing mintue, I wish I could I stay here for a longer peroid of time.

I am just smiling and laughing most of the time, and I haven't been thinking of anything depressing and for me that is HUGE :P

The dark cloud over my head has passed away, I know it will be back, but at least for now I can just be all cluless of problems and enjoy the simple life without its complexietes.

I know its only been a few days, but I know i fell in love with this place, and it is all due to my amazing friends, I LOVE THEM <3
hmm, so yeah that is about it, such a random post I KNOW, but i just felt like expressing myself, =)
I HOPE EVERYONE enjoys their summer and is having an awesome time because you do know that this is the only time youll have a summer called sumer 2010? :P :P