Soul mates?

Do people still believe in soul mates? Do they even exist? I cannot remember the last time I heard someone actually say the words 'soul mates' in person. I only hear them in movies and stories. So is that what it has come too, fiction? Or was it always fiction, but we just wanted to really believe that our soul mate is out there ...

I know I know, too many questions, I just don't have the answers so Blogging is the next best thing.

What do you think? How do you feel about the whole 'soul mate' idea?

I will admit when it comes to love I can be cynical, but can you blame me? In a world where chivalry is almost dead, where men and women cheat, and where the Good guy always ends up with the bad girl and vice versa.

It seems in the cases of love, heartbreak is just around the corner, and you need to get your heartbroken at least once and then the 'right' guy comes along...

I don't know what I am trying to say here .. to many random thoughts going through my head.

Ah well another random post, it is starting to become a habit. Well at least I'm blogging again...

100 questions!

So I know this is just boring stuff, but I'm bored and this what I did to pass time, if you are bored and you want to pass time feel free to answer these questions, some are interesting and some not so much ...


Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"For example, the cells of skeletal muscle may extend for up to ..." (boring science crap I know, but it was the closest book)

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
Nothing

Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
Watching random youtube clips

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
A random scene from The Devil wears Prada

Without looking, guess what time it is
4am

Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
4.56am

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Nothing, creepy silence 0___0

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Like 8 hours ago, I went to the store to buy some food

Did you dream last night?
Yes

Do you remember your dreams?
Kind of, bits and pieces

When did you last laugh?
A few hours ago ... I think

Do you remember why / at what?
Something I watched probably

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Nothing

Seen anything weird lately?
No not really oh wait I saw this girl with the freak-est red hair ever. Like not cool rihanna red, weird clown-ish red :p

What do you think of this quiz?
Random

What is the last film you saw?
Friends with Benefits

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
Right now, New York city

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A lot of electronics

Tell me something about you that most people don't know.
Can't think of anything right now

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
OK um I'm not sure if this regards as guilt but right now, starvation and malnutrition, we are in the 21st century we shouldn't have this problem

Do you like to dance?
Yes I do

Would you ever consider living abroad?
Well right now I am

Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
Not really, you can the word 'Thai' from my name, but that doesn't use all the letters, so no

Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
My friend =)

What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
Some TV show

Last time you swam in a pool?
2 months ago

Type of music you like most?
I can't pick one

Type of music you dislike most?
House, techno (I don't hate, but I can only stand a few songs)

Are you listening to music right now?
No

What color is your bedroom carpet?
Beige

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?
Get a huge TV and a karaoke machine xD

What was the last thing you bought?
Food

Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
No

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
I thought I could go sky diving, but then I realized I am too much of a coward

Do you have a garden?
No

Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Yes

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
5 more mins of sleep :P

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
I can't pick one

Who sent the last text message you received?
My Dad

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Amazon ( you can get anything you want )

What time is bed time?
These days, 6am (yes I know how my sleep is messed up)

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
No

How many tattoos do you have?
None

If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?
No

What did you do for your last birthday?
House party

Do you carry a donor card?
No

Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
my friends

Is the glass half empty or half full?
Even though I am trying to be more optimistic these days, I still see it as half empty

What's the farthest-away place you've been?
I don't know, Holland maybe

When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
I HATE TOMATOES! EW

Have you ever won a trophy?
No :(

Are you a good cook?
Not really, very average

Do you know how to pump your own gas?
No

If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
Well like the celebrity question before, I can't pick one

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
yes

Do you touch-type?
What do you mean?

What's under your bed?
Nothing

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really

Think fast, what do you like right now?
TV marathons I'm having these days

Where were you on Valentine's day?
My friends house

What time do you get up?
1 or 2pm

What was the name of your first pet?
Patch or paige

Who is the second to last person to call you?
The guy from Real Estate agency

Is there anything going on this weekend?
So far nothing planned

How are you feeling right now?
Kind of sleepy

What do you think about the most?
My studies and whats my next plan

What time do you get up in the morning?
I thought I just answered this question, these days, 1 or 2pm

If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
my family and close friends will find out straight away, everyone else, if they ask :P

Who would you tell first?
probably my mum, and whoever is with me

What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?
The change up

Do you sing in the shower?
Not really, but sometimes I burst into songs for a few seconds

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Ok the questions are repeating -.-, amazon! or HMV or waterstones (i like books)

What do you do most when you are bored?
Listen to music or playing games on the iPad

What do you do for a living?
I am a student

Do you love your job?
I don't have a job

What did you want to be when you grew up?
Doctor

If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?
TV/film critic

Which came first the chicken or the egg?
You tell me

How many keys on your key ring?
2

Where would you retire to?
Home

What kind of car do you drive?
I don't own a car

What are your best physical features?
I have been told its my 'smile'

What are your best characteristics?
I am always there for the people I love

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?
Right now, New York, wait before that Rome =)

What kind of books do you like to read?
A lot of types

Where would you want to retire to?
I just answered this

What is your favorite time of the day?
Night time

Where did you grow up?
Oman

How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
7 hour flight

What are you reading now?
Jay Z's book Decoded, Charles Dickon's David Cooperfield and Bram Stoker's Dracula

Are you a morning person or a night owl?
Night owl

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No

Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
How would I know -.-, when I see someone I'll ask them

Do you have pets?
Yes

How many rings before you answer the phone?
I just answer

What is your best childhood memory?
Too many to pick from

What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
never had one :P

Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
not really

What is most important in life?
Family

What Inspires You?
Seeing success, just makes me want to reach my goals

Going to the Movies Alone

It is 3.30am and I am alone sitting in my apartment on my laptop aimlessly browsing through different sites. Now one thing you should no about me is that I do like to be alone at times, I believe in personal space and I think it is nice to be alone sometimes because you get to clear your head and think of anything and everything.
But right now, I don't like this feeling of loneliness. I never said this or even dared to think of it; but right now I feel alone and I don't want to be ...

Yes I know that is such an obvious statement but anyone who knows me, would never expect me to say it, but I think I had enough time on my own right now, I thought of everything, I tried to sort out my life, I had movie/TV marathons and a few minutes ago I was contemplating going to the cinema alone and that is when I realized I had hit a new low.

So what is the point of this post you may think or ask, I have no idea! All I know right now is that I am alone, I feel lonely and I would really like to have someone right here with me.


Note: My sister and cousin left a 2 days ago so it has gotten really quite round the flat and I guess that's why this is hitting me hard.

Another note: I know this is the most random post ever, but I felt the need to write this ...

I'm here I'm not here

OK so I have deleted and undeleted my blog twice, why? I HAVE NO IDEA! I feel so different a lot=change has happened wthese past few months and at the same time, things are still the same, am I making sense?

The reason I can't erase this blog permanently is that it caries a special part of me and I enjoy writing about all the random stuff in my life. My thoughts and my feelings, it's like a form of release, but right now I can't bring myself to write anything even though I have got so much to write about.

Maybe I am in a rut, I don't know whatsup with me, hopefully I can get out of this rut soon because I do miss blogging.

I know this blog doesn't make any sense and it's so random and pointless but hey at least it is a start.

Bad News

My phone rings, I answer not expecting anything.
We say our hello's and how are you's and your voice becomes slightly shaky.
I can tell immediately that something's up.
I ask you what's wrong, you become quiet.
I start to panic, my breathing shortens, I plead you to just tell me, but you remain silent.
I am almost in tears, and you say it.
You deliver the bad news, and I break into tiny little pieces ....

My bestfriend

Today is my bestie's birthday

I know I know I post a lot of posts dedicated to people, especially on 'birthdays' :P but I can't help it!

HOWEVER this is actually a continuation of one of my early posts called 'I miss you'.
You see I thought I lost a friend, but I didn't she was right there, waiting for me =)
It is funny how things easily change, how one minute you inseparable and the next you hardly speak to each other and then everything is back to normal, life can be so fickle like that.

ANYWAY this goes out to you A*
You're my one and only,
You're my dearest,
You're my girl,
You're my rock and I LOVE YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABES


of course I had to post our 'song'
ahhh school days! hahahaha crazy times :P

I'm a fool to want you

Oh yes it is time for a music type post.

I love the classics, and Billie Holiday is definitely one of my favourites and after seeing the Chanel advert this song has been stuck in my head.





and since I am already posting songs, here is the amazing Etta James with 'At Last'





And last but most certainly not least here is Ella Fitzgerlad with 'Cry me a River'





No one, in the day and age, can make music as elegant and classy as this.

Saying the truth isn't always the best option ..

The title says it all, I have been put, on numerous occasions, in an awkward situation, when I knew things I wish I didn't know because then I had the choice to whether say something or not, and usually I don't say anything.

I know it is bad, but I just can never have the guts to say anything, I am afraid. I know it is such a silly thing to be afraid of but I can't help it.

Now I will just be quiet and watch helplessly and just pray that things work out themselves.

One thing I know if things do go too far, I'll have to 'man' up and say something, but till then, I'll just be a watcher.

to the year 2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

I don't know about you guys, but 2010 passed by so fast it is insane! It is already 2011! SHIZ!

Well hopefully it ends up being a good year. I made some resolutions which I did not tell anyone, I though it is better doing that, maybe they will end up happening. Inshallah 5eir.

SO for that is it, I can't really think of anything to say, hope you all had an amazing new years eve =)

xx

Already Dec?

Wow, time is definitely moving fast. I didn't even feel it pass by!

We are already in the cold month of December, the last month of the year. At this time I think ''OMG a year has already passed!''

I have been through and have done so much, but at the same time, I feel like i have got so many more things I need to do, and like every year I promise myself that next year would be different. Next year I would change this and that, and try to be more like this and that and in the end, nothing really changes, I stay the same, but I do admit amazing things do happen that have an effect on me, so I am just waiting for that.

I am looking forward to what next year holds for me, maybe a new prince charming? Maybe a new heartbreak? Maybe a new twin bestfriend and maybe and end to a friendship?

All I am saying that life is unexpected and that is what makes it so special.

So hello December, I didn't see you coming, but I am looking forward to what comes after you.

Oh and a special person's birthday is in December too >

To finally letting go

One thing about me that I would love to change right now is how I hold on to the past. What happened, happend and I need to learn to let go.

But that is the problem, I just can't, I hold on to it and I don't know why I do that.

And of course it is no surprise but this does take a toll on me, mentally and emotionally, and I just can't go through with it any more.

I was at a memorial yesterday and the one thing everyone kept on repeating was being grateful for what you have and that life is too short. I couldn't agree more. Life is to short to be wasted on meaningless things, to be upset of such tiny and irrelevant issues. Life is to short to get angry at something that is so small and pointless.

I have to let go of the pain, anger and frustration. It is in the end holding me back. So hopefully I can change this because now I really want to.

BUT I know I cant change the fact that I get annoyed and irritated so easily, but I can TRY my best not to let it show, it is hiding a part of me, but showing didn't really get positive results, well not over here at least.

Like father, like daughter

To everyone the 9th of November is just another random day, but to me, it is the reason that I am here with you right now.

My father was born on this day and this post is a dedication to my father. =)

Everyone, well almost everyone, consider their father as their hero, someone they look up to and one day become just like them. I am one of those people. I am the oldest child, the first daughter, and so I've got a pretty close bond with my dad. We cam sit for hours just talking about anything and everything from the random family things, to politics to music and movies.

I am my father's daughter. I can't help but notice how we are so a-like. I got a lot of my fathers personality traits, but with a twist (my mum-which will be another post).

I, like many people, admire my father so much. I remember when I was younger I use to brag to my classmates on how strong my father was and that he could carry me ( I was in second grade) and I wouldn't shut up about it until my teacher asked me "can he carry Miss Randa?" (note Miss Randa was a teacher at our school and she was HUGE people use to call her the Undertaker after the famous WWF wrester also named the Undertaker) it was then I realised I need to shut up. :p

But that was just the beginning of my admiration, another thing that admire a lot about my father is the way he thinks and presents himself, they way he talks and makes argument/statements. I always wished I could present myself like him. I always want to sound smart and intelligent and states interesting facts. I use to research about so many things, I wanted to be a walking encyclopaedia, I wanted to be knowledgeable of what is going around in this world, just like my dad. I used to (still do actually) research the most randomest things, anytime I would read or hear about something I would just go back home and google it.

My dad use to do the same thing, but back in his day he would use a dictionary (old school) :P

And then there was music and films, i.e. entertainment. Our tastes are ALMOST exactly the same, with a few mushy chick flicks from me and hardcore action/war films from my dad.

But seriously I found about so many amazing musicians and songs from my dad, from back in the day, because of him I fell in love with classics.

So to sum up this post, I just want to express my love and admiration to my father. I know I make him sound like super-dad, and I know no one is perfect, but that's how most of us feel about our dads right? I know I kept on repeating my dad this, and my father that, but I just never got to express about him here on this blog, I mean if I go on telling people my dad is this and that I would lose friends, hehe

So all in all, Baba, I love you and Happy Birthday <3>

and I would post a few of his favourite songs just for the sake of it:

ofcourse lazim abu baker salim, and I must admit I kind of had my own Abu baker Salem phase to:

and some Oasis, I am so addicted to this song;

Madly In Love

"I have to call him, I need to talk to him!" she thinks to herself. She looks at her watch it's just pass midnight, she walks to her bedroom door and listens, she can hear her brothers talking and playing their computer games.

"Crap, their still awake" she paces in her room back and forth and tries to think of way in which she can communicate him she just wants to hear his voice. An hour passes, she stands against her bedroom door again and she hears nothing.

"OK I'll wait for a half an hour then I'll make my move".

After 30mins, she opens the door, looks both ways, the house is quiet. No movement, nothing, everyone is fast asleep. She creeps slowly, like a theif. She runs down the stairs, and goes out the back door.

It's nearly 2am now. She opens the and leave her house and she walks to the nearest petrol pump. It is a 10min walk from her house. Then once she gets there she uses the pay phone to call him.

So there she is, she reaches the pay phone, puts in her money and dials his number.

"Umm hello?" He answers the call

"Hey babe, it's me ... I" She replies

"What? Where are you calling me from? Whats going on?"

"Um, yeah I am like, um, I am out, it's a payphone near my house"

"No way?! You left your house? You crazy?! At this time, I am coming to get you, wait there"

"OK sure"

As she stands there, this guy comes out of the shop, and looks at her weirdly.

"Hey you, what are you doing her by yourself?" He asks her, as he is approaching her.

"I am waiting for my brother, he is coming now."

"I don't believe it, I am going to call the police"

"No, he is, don't call"

"Listen come in the car and I'll drop you home ..."

She looked at his car, and back at him, 'no way I am getting into his car' she thought to herself.

"Or I can just call the police, '' he takes out his phone and starts dialing.

She starts to freak out, "OK fine!" and she gets into the car, and he goes to the driver seat, as he starts moving the car, she looks out the window and realises that she is in a random guys car, so she says "Oh, wait there's my brother, I can see him, look at that guy"

He speeds the car and drives off, she starts to panic and makes a rash decision that instant, she opens the door of the car and jumps out, and runs for dear life, she hides at an old building, and the guy turns his car around looking for her, but he can't find her. She 'limps' home with a bloody knee and sneaks back into her house.

Her 'boyfriend' on the other hand is driving around her neighbourhood looking for her, he drives around for a while and then give up and goes home and then next day gets a text saying everything was alright. Little did he know.

Now she is not psychotic, not insane or mentally challenged. She is a normal teen, with loving family and friends. She was just madly in love. Love was her mistake.

I won't say this story is fact or fiction, that's for you to decide. But no matter what know that this happens and young girl are so clueless of all of this because it is such a taboo topic from where we are from and they easily get lost.

Dedication to November

As the clock strikes 12 we enter the lovely cold weather month of November. This month has a special place in my heart. My father's birthday, my closest cousins birthday and my country's national day.

Novemeber I love you, when you come along you remind of how I lucky I am to have an amazing father, a 'always there for me' cousin/sister/bestfriend and an inspiring country.

I am proud to have them in my life.

Hello November just keep on making me smile. =)

Funny how girls think a-like

SOOOO

Today I had a meeting with this society I joined and I was the first person to arrive. (I know sounds very sad but trust me people were running late)

Anyhoo so here I am standing in front of the room and here comes this dude standing not to far away from me. I then come to the conclusion that he is also going to be in the same meeting as me, so then I change my BB status into "first meeting, no one's here but one guy should I say hi?"

And then I get like a lot of replies from my friends/cousins all asking the same question "is he cute?"

Now that cracked me up, and yes he was kind of cute, and when I told them that they all were like go say hi, but you see because I was so busy replying to everyone's BB messages, other people showed up and I started talking to them and I missed my chance.

He could've been my prince charming! HHAHAHAH imagine, that would be one funny story, don't you think? :P

Back to the heading and point of this random post, girls think a-like, and like they say, all great minds think a-like. =)

Life after Death

When people think of death the first and most normal thought is death of a person. Losing someone forever. Then they think death of another type of living organism, be it an animal, plant or anything else.

Here is a different way of looking at it, death of a relationship; death of a friendship. OK so I admit ‘death of a friendship’ does sound different and strange, but as I was sitting in my lecture (suppose to be paying attention but the lecturer was so boring I drifted off to my wonderland) I thought that a relationship between two friends is like a living thing on its own, you feed it by love and attention. So much effort from both ends needs to be put, and with neglect or some ‘disease’ it can easily die.

It happens, to everyone, at some time of their life. To some people it happens more often than others.

An example of it from a first person point of view:

I tried to hold what little love we had for each other. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. I couldn’t believe it could happen this easily. People look onwards and I feel them pitying us. All ready to give us condolences.

But I just wasn’t ready. I wasn’t going to give up without a fight and so I did just that. But you, you lost all faith. You easily let go and gave up, just like that.

I guess that’s what hurt me the most. And so before I knew it, the day came. We were just no longer friends, our friendship and love for each other died.

The undertaker took it away swiftly and then I was left alone in the dark. I was cold, and upset. I couldn’t cry anymore for all my tears dried up. I just stood there, in the darkness not knowing what to expect, and then in the distance I saw something. It was just a flicker at first, but then I got closer to it and saw some light, alas, my world of darkness has found its light and with that a new friendship has formed. It was indeed life after death.

I hate being crush-less

OK, OK, I know I am being a total girly-girl but seriously it sucks not liking anyone! I am the kind of person that always had a crush (I know it's ironic because I am so sceptical and cynical about the whole 'love'thing) and right now it has been almost a year and I don't even like anyone and it is an annoying feeling!

I mean, don't you just love having a crush? (a normal non-stalkerish type of crush) Always looking forward into bumping into them. Having the hugest smile when you see them. Making a fool out of yourself when they talk to you ... good times =)

But now? NOTHING! NADA! NO ONE! and I don't like this, and it doesn't help that I am in the UK with lack of my people! -.-

So I know this a total pointless post, but that is how I feel =p

Oh potential crush, where art thou? *sigh*

Blogs, Surfs, and Surveys (yeah I just had to do it) :P

so after seeing a couple of my blog-buddies post this, I just had to do it too because I am cool like that =p

Ten how’s:
1. How did you get one of your scars?
Fell down while running away from a puppy (it was a creepy puppy -.- )

2. How did you celebrate your last birthday?
I had lunch then a movie with a group of my closest friends and cousins XD

3. How are you feeling at this moment?
hmm, indifferent

4. How did your night go last night?
Tiring! I had this crazy gym class called cardio workout and it killed me!

5. How did you do in high school?
Good 7amdellah, but it did cost me my social life, but so worth it =)

6. How did you get the shirt you’re wearing?

it's my uni jumper, got it in my first year of uni

7. How often do you see your best friend(s)?
Well no matter where I am, whether it's here in the UK, or back home, I always see my bestfriends <3

8. How much money did you spend last month?

Too much, way too much :S

9. How old do you want to be when you get married?
I don't know wallah,

10. How old will you be at your next birthday?
21 WOOT WOOT!

1. Your mother’s name?
Um a7med (yeah I copied you EB)

2. What did you do last weekend?
I went to alton towers and it was awesome but tiring but awesome XD

3. What is the most important part of your life
My family & friends & success ;)

4. What would you rather be doing?
Sleeping :p

5. What did you last cry over?
Hmm, I don't know, oh yeah someone upset me =(

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Being by myself, and watching something, or eating.

7. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
To have an amazing personality, just be as awesome as me :P hahhaha

Just to be a loving and caring and strong person, oh and he has to be smart =)

8. What are you worried about?
Losing people I love

9. What did you have for breakfast?
Cereal

Eight you’s:
1. Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope

2. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

Not really

3. Have you ever been out of your country?
Yeah

4. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb
Yeah sadly

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Nope, 7amdellah

6. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
Nope and I never plan on doing that

7. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
Nope

8. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yeah

Seven who’s:

1. Who was the last person you saw?

My flatmate and bestfriend.

2. Who was the last person you texted?
My flatemate and bestfriend.

3. Who was the last person you hung out with?
A few of my closest friends

4. Who was the last person to call you?
One of my friends

5. Who did you last hug?
I don't know

6. Who is the last person who texted you?
My friend Mimi

7. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?
One of my closest friends

Six where’s:
1. Where does your best friend(s) live?
Oman, Bahrain, U.A.E. and Saudia

2. Where did you last go?
Starbucks

3. Where did you last hang out?

Starbucks la

4. Where did/do you go to school?
Muscat

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
Depends ...

6. Where did you sleep last night?
My room

Five do’s:
1. Do you think anyone likes you?
Not that I know of

2. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Nope

3. Do you know the muffin man?
yeah of course I do :p

4. Does the future scare you?

No I am just anxious for it

5. Do your parents know about your blog?
I don't know :P maybe

Four why’s:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friends?
Because I love them, and they make me happy and make me feel loved.

2. Why did you get into Blogging?
Well I first read blogs thanks to *L and then she got one and I was like hmm this is cool, so I got one XD

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
My aunt and cousin came up with my name and after arguing about what to name me the finally decided on my current name! :p

4. Why are you doing this survey?
Because I saw people do it and I was like this is cool

Three if’s:
1. If you could have one super power what would it be?
To be able to move things with my mind

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
yeah

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring?
a boat :p

Two would-you-ever’s:
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
Nope, I don't have an ex, but even if I did, things ended for a reason right

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
How will it save that someone really?

One last question:
1. Are you happy with your life right now?
Yes 7amdillah I am =)

So why is everyone getting married so young?

I guess the title of this post says it all. It's true though! A lot of people are getting married so young and fast these days, it's like we are back in the time of our grandparents when they got married at like 16 :S

It's so weired and different and I don't know how it's happening. I already know two people, who are very close to me, and they are just 19 and 21 years old and they are getting married soon. Like next year which is just insane!

So what's the reason? Well most probably love, you know, they are just so in love and want to get married ASAP and want to do things the '7alal' way so their resort is marriage.

I guess they don't realise what a serious matter it is. I mean don't get me wrong, I am not saying that no one should get married at a young age, I am just saying that people shouldn't rush into it and realise what a great responsibility marriage is.

What do you think?

Snap back to reality

Just when I thought the world was full bubbles and candy, I was pushed back into reality of this insane, hypocritical and just plain annoying thing we call 'life'. -.-

Oh yes, I am not in my best of moods. And surprise, surprise it isn't even my fault. It never fails to amaze me how when you think you know someone so well, then one tiny little thing happens and your eyes are forced wide open and you see the deep, dark, disturbing cracks in them.

I don't even know why I was so surprised and upset when this happened. I should've known. I just kept my guards down. But no more I tell you. No more Miss Nice lady. I am tired of that charade. You have to be tough, and take precautions in this cold world. In the end EVERYONE, yes EVERYONE is out for themselves and it is rare to find a selfless person.

I know its ironic how my previous post was all about being happy and crap, but that was written two weeks ago. I was on a happy-high and all was well in my La La land, but not any more. I still agree with most of the stuff I said earlier, I am not trying to contradict myself. I am just saying that again the people of this world just proved to me my point.

I am sorry I had to end in a depressing point, but that's how I feel now. I just wish I could bring all the people who I know can cheer me up, who I know I can complain too, here with me. But that can't happen, so I'll just have to face reality ...